Last weekend brought the freezing cold weather , not only was I feeling a little deflated…Now I can’t get out for my morning walk.
Overnight had brought freezing temperatures causing lots of black ice on our roads.
As I have a bad hip, I thought it was best to stay indoors, not wanting to risk a fall as me and hospitals don’t go together!
Saturday is always an early morning walk then a baking day, so it seemed strange to baking before 9am, normally I’m still outdoors with nature to entertain me.
Today I had to watch nature from the comfort of my own home.
The sleety rain was bitterly cold, as it hit the roads and pavement it was instantly turning to ice.
The birds looked so sad as they sat on chimney pots trying to keep warm
The sleet eventually stopped, but they grey skies remained. Lots of little birds visited our garden for food that day.
Sparrows, Robins, Blackbird, Starlings, Jackdaws, always a pigeon or two, three or four!
Oh and I can’t leave out Steven Segall whom sits on the roof of our garage/ craft room, guarding what he thinks is his domain.
The birds in garden did distract me somewhat, so baking took a little longer than expected!
Eventually baking is resumed.
Saturday was spent indoors, which kind of throws me out of sync. Walking, taking photos just being outdoors with nature passes so much of my time, when that is disrupted, my whole world feels strange.
Sunday was the perfect winters day…well I thought it was when looking through the window.
Clear blue skies the dusting of snow glistening on the foliage, it was beautiful.
We decided as the pathways looked a little slippery a beach walk would be the best. Hubby drove me and Toby down to Fleetwood beach…I couldn’t wait to be outdoors.
But what a surprise when we arrived, there must have been a hail storm overnight and the roads and car park where like glass, never have we seen it like this not so close to the beach
We parked up, opened the car door to step out side ….oh my goodness standing was so difficult it was that slippery.
We managed to get to the grass verge which leads us on to the beach, hubby laughing at me as I tentatively attempt some sort of walk.
The beach was bitterly cold, but such a beautiful morning surrounded us with blue sky and so many sea birds
There is a shingle island that has started to form out at sea just off the coast of Fleetwood and to my surprise when I zoomed in with my camera I could see so many Cormorants…never have I ever seen so many it was amazing! Totally shocked at the numbers, I just kept looking through the lens of my camera in disbelief just to check they where all still there.
We watched as more and more arrived .
Sorry the photos aren’t very clear, they where around 1.6 miles away
We eventually move and walk down the beach. Toby in his element as he runs through the puddles created by the craters of sand on the beach.
There was a chilly bite in the air as my fingers start to feel the brunt of the cold from taking lots of photos.
Toby was now wet and cold too, it was definitely time to head back to the car.
Not without taking a few more photos our way
Love the different seabirds that are out and about today.
We say goodbye to the beach as we walk towards the very slippery carpark. A little stonechat darts in front of us, too quick for me to get a clear shot., plus I’m concentrating on keeping my feet firmly on the floor.
A lovely bright walk, now time to warm up indoors with a hot drink.
It’s all about the fun of trying, I don’t get discouraged or disheartened if I can’t quite get the hang of something.
Somethings are just not meant to be.
That’s when I just go right back to the things I can do!
I think after the last few weeks of crafting to raise funds for the dementia film Sundown. It gave me inspiration to do a little crafting again.
I think it was also to kill the boredom of the football! Which Seriously threw my routine out of sink, by changing all the tv program times.
Anyway I decided to try something different. After lots of messing about trying this that and the other. I created this little hanging decoration with the soft toy sat in a heart holding balloons ( baubles used to create the balloons)
I love to create I think it’s in my blood
But if I’m honest, I’m always slightly nervous when producing a piece of art for someone else. I question myself…Am I good enough? Will they like my work?
I’m currently producing a piece of art work for an Opera (sorry that piece I can’t reveal just yet )
Below are a couple of pieces I produced for the Yorkshire Ambulance Service
When I look back through my photos / memories. I surprised myself on how many sketches and paintings I had actually done.
Then a memory came up on Facebook the other day.
My memory was of a Doe that I sketched last year, which sort of inspired me to sketch again.
So the pencils came out!
Seen as it’s Christmas, I thought I would have a go at sketching a Stag.
I started at 4am in the morning when I couldn’t sleep.
A couple of hours later I had a Stag staring back at me!
I like to test my boundaries…I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing, but I’m hopeful it will keeps my brain going!
I’m not one for lots of zooms but this last week has had to be an exception.
Monday 5th December was the start of the Deep 10 year celebrations.
A full week of Zooms…A DEEP Festival of Zooms!
A full week of fun, laughter, virtual hugs and tears as we reflect together.
The opening celebration was launched by Jane Garvey, a very informal start ‘What is DEEP?’
Jane is a very well-known British radio presenter, who joined ‘The 4 Amigos’
What an honour to be there at the opening of the Deep celebrations with my fellow Amigos.
We opened the session at 10.15am, lots of people joining.
The ping ping sound as people enter the meeting room.
That’s when the excitement starts to build. I make sure all notes are in order.
my “ I want to speak” card is at hand, pen paper and of course, my cup of tea in my “Deep Mug”
We are off the Amigos ride again!
Lots of questions, lots of answers, most of it a blur now.
I still remember the feelings that bubbled up inside…Happiness, joy, proud and emotional.
So many feelings!
Deep has been a big part of my life for around 3 years now.
As I listen to others speak, it makes me reflect and realise just how much ‘Deep’ has been there to support.
One of the questions Jane asked me was about my friends…
My reply was…I now only have 1 original friend that keeps in touch.
People always find my answer sad, to be truthful, it is their loss!
On a more positive note…I have new friends now, which is a totally different kind of friendship, a deeper stronger friendship within the DEEP network, whom I can trust, who bring warmth, hugs and belonging.
I must say I felt a little sad when the screen ended and turned blank.
I hold the joy in my heart of the opening celebration with fellow Deepers
What an honour.
There have been many zooms over the week to celebrate DEEP 10 years.
Unfortunately due to me struggling with zooms and trying to fit them in to my diary, I was unable to attend every one.
Those zooms I did attend, I found they raised every single emotion possible.
The last zoom on Friday left me quite sad.
The Deep Symphony was a very moving piece of music with 85 individual voices of people living with dementia
What an end to a celebratory week
I hope the DEEP has a long future supporting those whom live with dementia.
Happy 10th Birthday DEEP 🎉
If you would like to find out more about DEEP please click the link below
Some times when I am talking with people that know I have dementia, I get the feeling they are not listening to me or taking my conversations seriously.
Is it because I have dementia, everything I say is utter rubbish!
I can tell with their facial expressions that they are not really listening
Then again some just cut my conversation short, and carry on with what they want to say.
This is the feeling of being ignored.
The feeling of confusion, anger, indifference, helplessness, deep sadness.
Feeling overwhelmed by these emotions, I eventually think of myself as unworthy at times.
Being ignored is like being bullied in a way as it affects the way I feel, leaving me very empty and worthless and feeling rejected.
If I am being ignored it results in me become less cooperative with the person who is ignoring me…basically creates a great big crack in between us.
The way I see it is, Its all about respect and if people can’t be respectful they don’t deserve my time…
People should not presume that just because I live with dementia I’m not capable of holding a conversation, I might stutter and stumble on my words sometime, but I can communicate, if you just give me time and allow my brain to work.
I try not to use the D word when speaking to someone whom doesn’t know I have Dementia.
It is also very interesting to watch how they change if I do mention I have dementia.
The one place I never feel ignored is when I am in the company of like minded people, people that are also living with dementia.
I must say DEEP have always been good with respecting my needs and allowing me to speak, listening to what is needed to assist.
STIGMA still plays a big part in how people look upon and talk to people living with Dementia.
I can not believe where this year has gone, time seems to pass so quickly these days.
It doesn’t seem 2 minutes since Christmas 2021, now we are back in December…Christmas 2022 is upon us!
The Christmas decorations are out for another year as I go through the boxes of baubles with excitement.
I am always so enthusiastic about putting up the decorations, I love the sparkle, the trimming and designing of the Christmas tree.
Standing back and admiring the sparkly tree with precision placed baubles and branches…I just love it!
I have found it harder this year as my fingers are loosing there nimbleness, not good with fiddly things, I’m finding this when crafting now, bows are beginning to be a bit of a pain!
I started to trim up on Thursday 24th November, when hubby helped get the large tree out of the loft.
Assembling the tree is enough for one day! Every branch has to inserted into a colour coordinated slot…very painstaking!
Out come the baubles and lights, forgotten just how many lights there are to wrap around the tree. I am a perfectionist when it comes to the positioning. Turning the lights on and off as I go, trying my best to get them evenly spaced.
The day after it was the smaller tree, a much easier tree to erect. Just messier as the artificial snow and glitter that coat the branches always ends up all over everything!
Saturday was finishing off all the little bits and bobs, Christmas displays on tables and cupboards.
Then the big switch on, on Sunday
Next is just a few decorations for outside as I dress the door, put a wreath up and our sparkly outdoor tree which we made ourselves
Thought I would finish my blog today with a track from Elton John and Ed Sheeran.