Friday 23rd October 2020
I wake with thoughts popping in and out of my head again, but this morning they are more positive thoughts. I wonder could my mood be lifting?
I receive a video of my grandson Adam all dressed up in his Halloween costume…looking at the camera, with his hands like claws and saying “Roar” “Roar” Wow what an impact a little person can bring. I must have watched the video 20 times …every time I smiled a little more, he just melts my heart. All my grandchildren do… all in different ways as they all have their individual personalities…all unique and all bring a something entirely different ❤️
We have 7 grandchildren ranging from the oldest who will be 12 in December to the youngest who will be 1 in December, unfortunately the lockdown situation for 2020 has seriously disrupted grandchildren time as travelling…visiting has not been the easiest for anyone. So thankful for FaceTime, Snapchat and Zoom.
Wow it’s 8.30am before I know it…don’t know what is happening to my mornings, I keep getting distracted…this morning was with writing my blog!
Time to get dressed and get outside for some fresh air and exercise!
It’s raining! The rain doesn’t seem to bother me today as we walk towards the beach, I realise I have put my lightweight walking coat on as my shoulders begin to feel cold from the rain penetrating my coat…my hands are cold also as I have forgotten my gloves too…but we keep walking because today the rain doesn’t seem to matter.
Not many people out at all, I can just see some people fishing in the distance at the shore edge and hear the cars wizzing past behind me on the coastal road.
I’m going to have a break from typing now as I am beginning to feel nauseous…this happens sometimes when I’m typing now, think it’s the concentration and screen, so time for a break.
Thought I would add some brightness today as we all need brightness on these dull wet days …sharing some colourful flowers from my garden that are still flowering away
My mood has been very hit and miss over the last week or so…I am trying hard to lift my spirits but this has been a very difficult task. Lots of covering up how I truly feel has gone on this week. So I am hoping next week will be a much easier week.
Saturday 24th October 2020
I must have woke 4/5times during the night and at 5.30am I had just had enough so I went and made myself a cup of tea and sorted the dogs out.
Once the dogs are sorted I sit at my computer writing and before I know it nearly 2 hours have passed. I think that’s enough writing for today…don’t want to overload my head and end up with the fuzz or a headache.
It sounds terribly windy outside and think it has just started to rain…typical as the dogs need walking. I take a sip of tea ‘ugh’ it’s cold…it was made 2 hours ago, I have forgotten to drink it as I was consumed in writing.
Off to make another cup of tea I look out of the window but can’t see very much as it’s still dark, only the street lights and lights from the houses to illuminate outside, with spit spots of rain on the window and the howling of the wind around the house, it’s not really a great invitation to the outside world today.
We get out walking just before 8am and it is so windy but at least it is fine. No one out this morning on the beach…the rain starts so we decide to head off home as we walk down the beach with the sand blowing against the back of our legs…good job I have my jeans on and not shorts…I would have been seriously exfoliated this morning by the beach sand whipping against our skin.
Home…back in the warmth with a nice hot cup of tea!
I start to feel a little nauseous mid morning and head feeling a little funny.
The feeling of nausea stays with me on and off through the day so I take myself off somewhere quiet…yes my craft room! I get my watercolours out and mess with the paints getting the feel of the paint and water on the paper. I start with something easy a couple of balloons
Not brilliant but it is my 1st attempt so I am pretty pleased. The next painting I attempt are poppies
Getting the hang of the paint better and I really like this painting
My last painting is of a little Robin, this was much harder for me …but again today is the first time I have ever painted with watercolours or any paint other than emulsion and gloss. I’m quite chuffed with my paintings but I’m definitely no Van Gogh!
Feet up mid afternoon, chilling watching a film about a dog… it wasn’t the best film …I most probably I kept saying it wasn’t the best film I had seen all the way through, as I could tell I had said it before with hubby’s reaction. So time to keep quiet.
Boy did it make me cry at the end though! Even if it wasn’t the best it still upset me!
Flick does not look her normal self tonight which is slightly worrying, so I go to bed worrying which is not good, now I’m up and down checking she is ok.
Sunday 25th October 2020
This morning Flick came to me and looked a little brighter, or am I just hoping she is looking brighter?
The clocks have gone back an hour but my head hasn’t, this will most probably bring confusion for lots of people today with or without dementia…even Toby is confused.
It is absolutely throwing it down outside so I am waiting for the gap where I am hoping the rain will ease so I can get out for a walk with Toby and Charlie, at the moment that gap seems like it could be a long time off!
So I am sitting at my computer writing up my blog watching the rain pour down the windows and I mean pour! All the drips and splashes have mingled into one as they make their way down the window, the sky is a grey and orange colour , more grey than orange though.
I have just been shaking my head at myself…I have an iPad on a stand and the iMac on the same desk. I am typing away with the desk keyboard…when I realise nothing is happening, no text is appearing on my iPad at all.
I can hear noises…bip…bip…bip. The application I am using is on my iPad …Not the iMac ha! ha! I have done this a few times before. It’s like my brain sees the keyboard and think “that’s for typing ” so I tip tap away before realising the keyboard on the desk is Not for my iPad!
Yes! It’s stopped raining! Everybody out! Leg it!
Later in the morning I tidy my wardrobe as warmer clothes need to be sorted out in to separate outfits.
I open the wardrobe doors and sometimes see clothes lots of clothes and then struggle with deciding / choosing or just getting something out to wear. So I tend to wear the same things over and over, while my other clothes just sit in the wardrobe.
After lunch I go to my craft room finish off Mr Sheep and then make some cards, hubby is in his workshop making whatever he is making with bits of wood.
Strange day…it’s that extra hour!
Lost all interest in everything late afternoon, so feet up time to chill.